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Hello everyone, welcome to another Daily Gym. Today is Wednesday, March 27th, 2024. And what I want to talk about is feeling gratefully exhausted.
And I'm saying this because earlier today I recorded a podcast episode with my friend and Mary DeRate. And hopefully I will upload it tomorrow or in the next few days. We had a few technical glitches. I'm trying to record the video version of it. So I have to stitch a few things together.
But right now, I feel gratefully exhausted. And what I mean by that is that Mary and I had a very long conversation, three hours-ish, maybe a little more.
And I enjoyed it so much. I learned so much. I felt so alive. I was speaking so much. I sat in one chair for three hours looking at a screen. And it bothered me a little bit sitting that long, but I didn't really mind it that much. And so after I got off the call, I just felt relieved in a way, but overall just this gratitude for how tired I felt because I really liked what I was doing. How often in life do we feel exhausted, but almost angry that we're exhausted? exhausted.
Something I've tried to tell people is that they would say, oh, but you can just go do computer programming and then you could do this podcast or something like this on the side. And I'm thinking, If I do computer programming, I can get really tired from it because it can be a lot of mental work and I can be thinking about this and that and I get into a certain mindset and then I can feel exhausted. But then sometimes for me, that exhaustion from that activity frustrates me, because I don't want to be tired from that thing. I want to be tired from the thing I want to do.
And I think about how I had a conversation with somebody. but this has come up a few different times because I like talking so much. I think other people maybe don't enjoy it nearly as much as me. And going deeper and trying to figure out, especially on some of these emotional conflicts, okay, what's really underneath? What's really going on? I've had some people, this one person even said to me, I feel I am exhausted and they put it in bold type in a text message. I'm thinking, oh, I am exhausted. I never want to talk about this ever again. And I'm like, oh no, but I, I, I like talking about things. It's for me, she didn't sound gratefully exhausted. She sounded kind of exasperatedly, exasperatedly exhausted. Ooh. Um, she sounded annoyed that she was exhausted. Whereas I, like I said, currently feel grateful for the thing that exhausted me that took a lot of my energy. And I just wonder how often in life we feel exhausted from things that we didn't necessarily want to do. And so there's this exhaustion and bitterness that kind of swirl together and maybe frustration with our our own actions, our own decisions, instead of being really grateful. Man, I did that? Oh, man, what an episode. Oh, and I can upload it. I can figure out how to upload this. And then I can do another episode with another person on Friday. And then I can do another next week. So I can get a lot of my energy out by doing something I really enjoy. It's almost the idea of, hey, you have kids, let them go play outside. Or you have a dog, let the dog go run around. When the dog is running around, the dog is so happy. The dog is sniffing all these different trees. I go to the park a lot. I see this a lot. The dog, somebody lets the dog off the leash and it goes and it sniffs this tree and it sniffs that tree and it pees on that one street lamp and it goes over and finds the garbage and it finds a new human and walks up to the human and sniffs a little bit and maybe gets pet by the human and then goes over here and goes over there.
It seems like the dog will probably feel exhausted, but also grateful for the thing that took the energy.
And I just, I think back when I did, I worked at a coworking space. I was helping them on events. So I would trade my time and they would give me access to the coworking space. And so when I would help on these events, I was just moving furniture here, over here, table here, chair there, pick this up, move that, and didn't have a lot of thinking. I was just told, you do this. And I loved it because afterwards my body felt exhausted and I felt grateful because I liked being around all those different people. It's like me being on some projects in Germany. I've done these train the trainer events where we'll have maybe four or five trainers and we'll have two to three people doing food and logistics and coordinating so much in the house, and then we'll have 36 or so participants from six different countries. So you're talking about 45 people living in one house for 10 days, and not just living there, but doing projects and eating food together and cooking meals together and really intense projects from, I don't know, 9 or 10 in the morning until midnight sometimes for 10 days straight. And while I get tired and I feel exhausted there's also this gratitude for it because I feel alive I'm doing the things that just really bring such energy to me so it's this mix of being tired but also alive and I think we all have different things that do that for us I wonder if sometimes Sometimes the more physical things of me talking that much for that, you know, on the projects or me talking that much on the podcast episodes uses the body. It's the breathing, it's the speaking, it's the facial expressions, it's the attention. I wonder if that has an impact on not only me feeling exhausted, but also the gratitude for feeling exhausted. But like I said, maybe it's different for different people. Maybe if they go out for a run, that type of exhaustion makes them feel grateful versus if they were talking in a three-hour conversation.
Anyways, it's about seven minutes here. And like I said, I'm exhausted. So I'm going to end this and talk to you tomorrow for the last one for the week. All right. Take care, y'all.
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